This morning I went in for the blood test at my clinic. They said they would phone between 12pm and 2pm with the result. I had done another pregnancy test at home which looked like a very faint positive this morning. So I thought that it meant I am pregnant but possibly the HCG level is low. I went home at lunchtime hoping I would be there for the call but they didn't ring and we couldn't get through to them. So then I went back to work knowing they had hubby's number.
Once I got in the door this evening and saw his face I knew it was bad news and I just burst into tears. He hugged me and then told me the news. Not positive. Not even a little bit. I was firstly sort of in shock as I was so sure that I was pregnant. We're heartbroken.
It's just so disappointing. We had so much hope this time and it did seem like it was going well! We had the scratch, our embryo was great quality, I wasn't stressed... The home pregnancy tests I did that showed very faint positives must have just been showing leftover HCG hormones from the shots. But then again only having one egg this round didn't give us great odds at all I guess.
It's just so disappointing. We had so much hope this time and it did seem like it was going well! We had the scratch, our embryo was great quality, I wasn't stressed... The home pregnancy tests I did that showed very faint positives must have just been showing leftover HCG hormones from the shots. But then again only having one egg this round didn't give us great odds at all I guess.
We are trying to plan a little trip next weekend, maybe a spa hotel or something, we just need to get away for a few days. In a few weeks we have an appointment with our doctor to discuss what went wrong. I'm not sure when I could face going through it all again, I just need a break for now.
I'm so, so sorry. That must be devastating.
ReplyDeleteYes, try to get away for the weekend and take your mind of things a bit (if that's at all possible).
Thank you. Yes, it's just been so disappointing, I really thought it was going to work this time.
DeleteI am so sorry. A negative is awful no matter what, but it seems particularly cruel when you think it could possibly be positive. The weekend away sounds like a great way to gather up the pieces and find some peace.
ReplyDeleteThanks. The weekend away was really nice and helped. We had the follow up appointment with our doctor and it looks like it was a chemical miscarriage so that's probably what the faint positive was.
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