Friday, June 9, 2017

Time for the good wife


The day after our transfer I was injection free which was great! The two week wait of IVF always feels a little strange. You go from having numerous appointments at your clinic every few days and being extra busy to all of a sudden having free time and getting radio silence from your clinic. I'm doing well at the moment though. There were a few times where I got a bit emotional/stressed/overwhelmed thinking about it all but I've mainly been happy and positive. I've been reminded by my lovely blog commentators that each cycle and embryo tells a new story. Just because it hasn't worked for us before doesn't mean it couldn't happen now (sometimes I just think I can't even imagine this actually working..)

I'd taken several days off work after the transfer and I've really been taking it easy which has been nice! Hubby and I have done some things around the house; unpacking and organizing where we put things, cooking and eating lots of healthy meals but also just spending time together watching TV or relaxing in the garden. My favourite two shows at the moment are "The Good Wife" and "Call the Midwife". Hubby jokes I love any shows containing the word "wife" in the title, haha!

I'd actually stopped watching "Call the midwife" after our third round failed as I couldn't face seeing all the pregnancies and babies. However I feel fine about watching it now. I love shows set in the old days. "The Good Wife" is something I begun watching after IVF round three failed. It's perfect as it's a court room drama without a plot involving babies or pregnancies. I love watching shows with strong women characters. There are also about seven seasons on Netflix so lots to catch up on!


Oh yeah, I've also been trying to practice "social isolation" and staying away from other men lately, haha! There was a study which showed that women who avoided males other than their partner for three days after and IVF transfer had a higher rate of becoming pregnant. I figure anything is worth a shot at this point!

Last night I had a really sweet dream. In it, I had twin baby girls. There were about six months old and in a double buggy and I was bringing them around the park and shops with me. I was also tickling their chins and talking to them. They were laughing and smiling at me and I felt a strong sense of love. I woke up thinking how nice a thought it is that the embryos inside me could be communicating in some way. Yes, I know that probably sounds pretty far fetched! It could easily be that I have babies on the brain lately and it meant nothing, but it was sweet all the same! During our first IVF I remember having a dream of boy-girl twins.

A few days after our result we'll be hosting my mother in law's birthday party at our place. I'd offered to do it ages ago, not realising the timing. My MIL said if we get a positive result, it would be the best birthday present ever for her. It was a sweet and well meaning thing to say but for some reason I just felt added pressure, like if this doesn't work I'll be letting everyone down. I know I shouldn't feel like that though. Both sides are the family would just love to be grandparents.

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  1. *crossing fingers* Also both those shows are awesome (though I do agree about Call the Midwife. Especially since a reasonably fraction of the characters don't want to be pregnant.)

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    1. Thanks. Yeah I love them both. Call the Midwife does have a fair few storylines that can bother me. It seems to be full of unexpected and unwanted pregnancies!

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  2. You sound so positive and bubbly! It's great :) praying that dream is the real deal! <3

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    1. Aw thanks! Yeah I do try to look on the bright side of things as much as I can. Yea, wouldn't that be something?!

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  3. Stay positive. I once worried about building my hopes up too much after a transfer, but my dad pointed out, "hey, you've got two weeks to believe. You should enjoy it."

    I took that to heart. Whatever happens after, you have two weeks to look forward to, not to dread. *throws baby dust*

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    1. That's sweet advice from your Dad. I often struggle with the hope and dreams versus trying to protect yourself and be realistic. But it's so nice to just stay hopeful for those two weeks so you're right, I'll continue to let myself enjoy this time.

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    2. Wow, great advice from Mara's dad. But I do get the need to protect ourselves.

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  4. You are doing great! Keep on taking care of yourself. I too have my fingers crossed!

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  5. Sticky baby dust hunny! I hope that your dream does come true! <3 Keep doing what you are doing, staying positive and hopeful. It is the best! I am keeping you in my thoughts!

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    1. I'm trying to keep up the hope and positivity! Thanks again for following and supporting :)

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  6. Praying so hard that this is your and GerMann's cycle!

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  7. I feel like we would be friends if we ever met! :) I became obsessed with The Good Wife after my 3rd IVF cycle failed in March. It's great - I also love the strong women on the show. I've avoided Call the Midwife, although I've heard great things about it. I hope the TWW is bearable and you keep yourself busy and occupied :)

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    1. Aw that's so sweet! I'm sure we'd be friends too :) I'm sorry to hear about your failed third IVF. I wish this journey wasn't so hard and crappy for us all. Yeah The Good Wife is great isn't it! I've generally been keeping myself busy and this TWW doesn't feel so long yet..

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  8. It sounds like you are doing all good things while you wait! I haven't watched either Wife show, terrible about TV. Enjoying the Handmaid's Tale, but that's probably not the best TWW pick either! Social Isolation isn't something I've heard about before but it sounds interesting. Hey, whatever works! I hope this is it. Every cycle really is its own beast, and you never know what could happen. I am so hopeful that this works out for you...hard not to think on dreams but what a lovely one for you to have now. <3

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    1. We are planning to read The Handmaid's Tale for my book club next actually. Then I would like to watch the show after. It sounds like it could be hard to watch for people who have gone infertility though but I'm still curious about it. I am hoping so much for this round too, fingers crossed...

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  9. Thinking of you! How are you doing?

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    1. Thanks! I've been quite up and down. One moment convinced it's not working as I can't feel anything, but then another moment feeling hopeful! Not that long to go now till I find out.

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